grief body – #5

by mickharris

9/10 – the grief body won’t lift anything heavy because it doesn’t know its own strength. it has no sensation of weight or space, and it mostly wishes it could fold up and disappear forever. melt like an ice cube into a bath of warm water. insignificant. it doesn’t want to be noticed for fear that it will be tested beyond its limits and hurt, bad. punished for being alive and for daring to try and push itself.

the grief body doesn’t want to get better, anymore. it wants to rest and forget and keep all eyes off of its quiet failure. it can’t imagine what could be worse than that, there’s simply no opportunity to fall.