two grandmas

by mickharris

i have two grandmas

like everyone

and they are both dying


one spent the night on the floor of her walk up flat in san francisco

my cousin found her today


and confused


one has a heart that is beating at a tenth

of what it should

with shunts and drugs

and she is tired all the time


it never occurred to me that i could lose both together

but it looks like it might happen that way


and still i think

oh i’ll call them tomorrow

(one doesn’t even really speak to me that much, we are just filmy and apart)

oh i’m too busy